Home early

I came home from work early today.

I have been on Provera to kick start my period... and guess what came today. Man, I have the worst cramps!! The only good thing about this is that in a couple days I can start the Clomid.

In on it

I have said before that The Mr. and I have not told anyone that we are trying to have a baby, and that we are having some issues, but I have actually told a couple people. One of my best friends (she lives in my hometown - about 8 hours away), knows. Also, my neighbor knows. Her and I go on walks a lot after I get off work. She has a baby that will be 1 next month, so we go with her baby and my dog on nice walks around the neighborhood. It is nice having her to talk to. She is so sweet, and she is a christian so it is nice to know that she and her husband is praying for us.

I also told my mom. I tell my mom everything and I just couldn't keep it from her any longer! We have been trying since August, so I thought it'd been long enough. Plus she kept saying things that indicated she thought we'd have news for her sometime soon... for example: I am in my best friends wedding coming up and mom said, "good thing the bridesmaids dress has an empire waist, just in case you get bigger or something..." haha - okay mom, I get it! haha, so I told her. She was sooo excited to know that we are trying. But I am sure it was hard to hear that we are having trouble. She didn't have trouble with me or my brother.

I feel better having told a few people though. It helps to be able to talk to people, especially my mom!

The next step!

Today I had to go to the lab to get the normal bloodwork done to see if I ovulated. I always have to go in, get the labwork done, then wait for the doctor to call to see what the results were. This afternoon the doctor called. She said that I had not ovulated. Go figure. She said that the next step could be one of two things. 1 - I could start the next level of Clomid or 2 - I could go ahead and make an appointment with a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). I asked her what she recommended, and she said that I could do both. Since, most likely, it would take a month to get in with the RE I could in the meantime do the next dose of Clomid. So... that's what we're doing. I am going to start on 100 mg of Clomid and see if that does the trick. If not, I'll have an appointment with an RE.

I am excited that we have a next step! I hope that I can get some answers as to why, or at least what is going on with my body!

My parents left

My parents went back home today. It was soo nice to have them here! We went out to dinner, showed them a new part of town, went to church, and had a great time!!

Our visitors

My parents are coming to visit tomorrow!! I am so excited to see them!

They have no clue we are trying to conceive. I talk to my mom almost everyday. We live about 8 hours away from them, so that is my way of feeling close. It is tough not to mention what The Mr. and I are going through, but neither of us are ready to tell people yet. Depending on how long of a process this is will depend on when/if we tell people we are struggling.

I have really been trying to keep my focus on God through this. It is very hard to "let go, and let God". I feel like I should be able to control things, so it is hard knowing that this is something I have NO control over!

I am making a cake for my parents visit, better check on it!