Update

Wow, so it's been awhile since I've updated. Work has been busy, life has been busy, I've just had no time!

Since the last time I've blogged - we got a stroller and car seat! I am so excited about both of them! Here is the car seat:

And here is the stroller:

It took me so long to pick one, but overall with the ratings and other feedback, I decided. I decided not to go with the travel system... but this does fit together like one, which is perfect! Plus the stoller folds down flat so it will be easy to store. We have a big dog (90 lbs.) so with her and baby AND luggage, etc. it will be good to have it as small as possible! The Mr. and I put them together and had fun "practicing" :)

We also registered.... at least at one store (Babies R Us), we are going to go to Target too, but we haven't gotten time to do it. It is really starting to feel more "real" and I am getting so excited! I feel him moving around tons now! The Mr. got to feel him too... and last weekend we saw him kicking away! That was really neat!

I am sooo ready to pick a paint color... but I haven't been able to go by and get samples! The bedding is blue, green and white. The green is kind of a lime green... so I was thinking of toning it down and using that. I can't wait to see how everything comes together!

I go in next Thursday for my appointment. 4 weeks is soo long between appointments, but since we've been keeping busy it has gone by pretty fast.

The Mr. and I are headed out of town for Memorial weekend. I can't wait! We decided to do a get-away partly to get away before the baby gets here, and partly to get away to celebrate our anniversary (June 3 will be 4 years! yay!) We didn't want to travel too far, or go anywhere too expensive, so we are doing simple. I just want to get out of town! We will leave tomorrow morning.

Oh and we picked a name!! It is soo nice to call our son by a name! We decided to tell people, and so far good feedback! We really debated on whether to tell people or not, but in the end, we figured it would be more awkward not to.

Well, that's about all I can think of right now. I can't wait to go check out what you girls have been up to! I'll try to be better about posting! I miss being up-to-date!

Bittersweet

Well, we sure have been busy! Last weekend my mother-in-law was in town, and this past weekend my brother and his wife came to visit. We had SUCH a good time showing them around!

My brother and sister-in-law had never been here, so we tried to cram everything we could into the too short weekend. He even helped the Mr. move our guest bed into the new guest/office, so now we officially have a nursery! Exciting!

I just love my brother so much! I lost it this morning when he left. I mentioned on this blog a few months ago that he decided to join the Marines. Well... the time has come. He leaves for bootcamp in 10 short days. He lives in my hometown - about 8 hours away. Bootcamp lasts about 13 weeks, then he goes to combat training, then to school (in California! We are on the East coast - so a LONG way away!) and then... they can put him anywhere.

Once he left this morning, I have absolutely no idea when I'll see him again. :( Since I am due in September I won't be able to travel home for his bootcamp graduation (end of August). And after that, I don't even know where he'll be. I PRAY that it isn't overseas!!

Don't get me wrong - I am very VERY proud of him. He is excited about this. But I already miss him terribly. I am just really sad today.

Sunday...

Well Sunday was Mother's Day. A day that I have dreaded in the past. This past Sunday, I found myself dreading it again. Is that bad? selfish? weird?

I squirmed when I woke up and my sweet husband said "Happy Mother's Day!!" My mother-in-law was here this past weekend, and she hugged me and said it to me again. I told them I feel like I shouldn't be told that. She said, You of all people should be! You've worked so hard to get here!

She's right, but I think it was just a reminder of the struggle, and the hurt that I had felt just a year ago on that same day.

My wonderful husband bought me earrings. This is HUGE! The Mr. has only given me jewelry one other time in our relationship (besides my wedding ring), and it was a necklace, so I was floored. And it was the September birthstone. For our sweet baby's due date. I couldn't help it - I cried.

Really what I was dreading was church. They made all the mothers stand so we could get a rose. I just broke down. I am about to right now remembering. I am just soo humbled at God's works. I am soo unspeakably thankful that God has blessed us with a sweet baby. I pray all the time for those that are still struggling to conceive. I KNOW what a hard day yesterday is, especially for those people. Our pastor even pointed it out. It made me cry harder.

I don't know why God picked us to carry this sweet baby. I was brought to my knees yesterday, just so broken before Him. I love this child more than I would have even thought possible and he isn't even born yet! Yesterday just reminded me how much I have to be thankful for. I keep praying - God please don't let me take any of this for granted!

A year ago, on Mother's Day, our pastor said a prayer. In that prayer he said something along the lines of - those that are wanting a baby, that are struggling to concieve, by next Mother's Day may your prayer be answered.

and guess what?
it was.

Halfway!

Wow, I am halfway! We had our 20 week appointment this morning and Baby Boy is still doing well! Everything measured right on schedule! Praise God! It is so amazing to see what's going on inside me! I am feeling him, it is inconsistent and sometimes I question if it's him or if it's just gas or something! The Mr. is really ready to start feeling him too! I have gained 14 pounds. I am really hoping not to gain more than 30, but we'll see.

I think I have decided on the bedding. I tried to upload the pic on here, but it was so small I don't think you would've been able to see it! It is light green, blue and white. So precious! And I have picked a stroller! I am going to get it at the end of the month when my coupon is good. Can't wait!!

My next appointment is in 4 weeks and I do the glucose test! She already gave me my "yummy" orange drink to chug. I heard it isn't too bad - just super sweet. We shall see :)

Random thoughts:

- I really really really strongly dislike my job.

- I've been having the most random, vivid dreams lately! One was about me going to the club with my church girlfriends, I forgot to shave my legs, so with all my clothes on (and my heels) I jumped in the shower and shaved my legs. Another was about Hannibal Lecter. Last night I dreamed I woke up and my belly was flat... no bump.... this one scared me the most.

- We have BUSY times coming up! Pretty much from now until the end of the year. Crazy right?

- My mother-in-law is coming on Friday. Yes I am really excited! I am one of the lucky ones that likes their in-laws

- Why do they make sooo many choices when it comes to buying baby items?? Like which stroller to get...

- I have been feeling something moving around in my belly... it has to be the baby! It's exciting, but I can't wait for him to just kick me, hard enough to where it isn't a question of it being gas. I told him, "This is the only time I will tell you to kick me".

- Last night I snapped at the Mr. Everything that he did (or didn't do) I snapped at him. And the whole time I said, "I don't know why I'm acting like this".

- This Thursday I am halfway through the pregnancy. It's hard to believe!

- I am trying to plan a trip for the Mr. and I to get away for a long weekend. I am soo excited about it - I just have to actually buy the hotel and plan it. And I'm trying to do it for Memorial weekend, so I'm running out of time.

- Did you know that places only sell gift wrapping totes during Christmastime? (You know the long skinny totes that hold the wrapping paper?)

- I cleaned out my spice cabinet this weekend - probably half of my spices were expired.

- I have to pee all.the.time.

- Happy Monday!