Another sad day

Last night I started cramping really bad. When I woke up this morning I was still cramping, but I went into work anyway. I lasted 1 hour and then came back home. I started bleeding. I am having a miscarriage. It is so painful.

I have really been praying to God and just asking that He lead me on the path that He wants me to be on. I am so proud of The Mr. and I because together we are such a strong team. I thank God everyday that The Mr. is in my life. I have such a wonderful, understanding famly too, and I just thank God for all the blessings I have in my life.

Confirmation

I had another round of bloodtests this morning, and the Dr called this afternoon to confirm what we already knew. I think I have allowed myself to accept this. It is just really difficult because I haven't actually miscarried.

I called my mom a few days ago and told her everything. She didn't even know we were pregnant. I just poured my heart out. Today The Mr. and I decided to tell our Sunday School class. We have such a wonderful church. I sent out an email to our class just to let them know what was going on with us. I have decided that the more prayers the better. I feel a weight off my sholders now that we have let people in on our story. I have gotten such wonderful responses from the email. I am going to tell the rest of our family tomorrow.

Bad news...

I went in for bloodwork this morning and waited anxiously for the call this afternoon. The nurse called at about 3:30 and said that my Beta number had dropped. She said this didn't look good at all. Basically she said to prepare myself because it looked like this was going to be a chemical pregnancy.

Tonight at work, I had a night meeting. This meant that after I got this horrible news, I had to go put on a happy face for 5 more hours. I called The Mr. right after the nurse called me and he also had a late meeting he had to go to.

When I got in the car from the meeting to come home, I just cried and cried. I talked to God and asked why. I am not mad at God, but I just don't understand. I am soo sad. I don't know if I have ever felt like this. What a short time we had with this tiny baby, and I am so unbelievable sad. The Mr. and I have both decided to call in sick tomorrow.

Spotting

What a scary day today is!! I woke up this morning and was spotting! It was really dark brown, not red at all, so I figured there wasn't anything to worry about. But still very scary to see that, especially so early in the pregnancy. I am 5 weeks today.

It also worries me because I am no longer feeling bloated. I am actually feeling back to normal. I called the Dr and they gave me an appointment for the morning to get blood test.

Bloodwork

I went in today for bloodwork, and everything looks great! She said that my Beta level didn't get as high as they were hoping, but that my progesterone level was off the charts. She seemed to think everthing is all good!

I feel huge already!

I feel so bloated! My stomach is so big! I know it is just bloat and the Dr said that because my progesterone is so high that can cause me to feel even more bloated. At work yesterday I couldn't even keep my pants buttoned! I keep saying though, I am not going to complain!! :)

Cramps!!

Yesterday I had a lot of cramping. Then today I had off from work so I was just hanging around the house and I was doubled over in pain! No bleeding, but it really scared me! I called the Dr on call and she said that it sounded like I was just really in touch with my body and not to worry. Especially since I wasn't bleeding.

I really hope everything is okay! The Mr. and I have both been praising God, and thanking Him for giving us this little life inside me!

Big news!

Can you see it?!!!!!
I am PREGNANT!!!

I went to the Dr this morning and she did an ultrasound. I told her I was having major cramps. Like I was going to start my period any time. She just gave me a funny look and said "that's what all women say that end up pregnant" She did the ultrasound and my 2 follicles were HUGE!! I mean they were enormous! She said they would look at my bloodwork and call me. She gave me a prescription for BCP for me to take to shrink those big follicles if I was not pregnant.

I got a call this afternoon and she said, "you know that prescription I gave you?? Well you can throw it away because you are pregnant!!"

I am in shock!! The Mr. and I went out to dinner tonight to celebrate. Then he took me to Walmart to buy a bunch of "healthy" food :)