So I am in better spirits :) Thanks ladies for your comments. I can't say enough how awesome it is to have so much support/advice/comfort/etc. from people I have never met! I was telling the Mr. how great it is to get on this blog and pour out my heart and what I am feeling (or not feeling), or symptoms, or questions and have so many people know EXACTLY what I mean!
I read a daily devotional by Beth Moore every day... the other day one of them said something along the lines of, "Why do we feel the need to pray so safely? Who are we trying to keep from looking foolish? Us or Him?"
Very interesting. It really got me thinking. I DO pray "safely" but what I overlook is that God is in the miracle making business! He can do it! He has done things that can't be explained! If it is His will He will make it happen. I think I pray "safe" because I am worried that I am asking too much, or I think, why would God choose me. I like when my preacher says, "We serve a BIG God, and He can do BIG things!" So true.
I don't think I updated that my nurse called me back on Tuesday afternoon and said my bloodwork showed that everything was pretty much back to baseline, but the doctor wanted to wait a couple weeks for those follies to go back down. So........ I don't go back until next Tuesday. The Mr. is headed out of town the next day. I will be leaving a few days after that. Basically I will have to wait until after Christmas to start up the next cycle.
BUT (like many of you pointed out) my mind will be filled with family and friends with the holiday just around the corner. I need to use this time to get back on track. I have been working out (again... hopefully this time it will last! ha!) I want to just clear my mind.... just relax! Then in January - we can start the New Year fresh! With an IUI!
Oh... and more good news... our bedroom set FINALLY got here!! YAY!!!