Holy Cow!

I just got a call back about my appointment this morning...
ready??
Beta # 3 is 14,037! I am 26 dpo.
And my progesterone is still really good (I didn't get that number).
I was praying for at least 6,000 - I am blown away! Now I am worried that it is way too high! I even asked the nurse if that was too high. She said nope, it's a good thing. She said it is perfectly normal to worry, but that these numbers are good. So.... I will try not to stress over it! Hey - maybe there is more than one in there :)

I have my ultrasound appointment scheduled for next Tuesday!! I am sooo excited!

Let God...

Well, I have been feeling pretty okay. I am super tired, and the past couple days have been feeling queasy, but it isn't too bad. I am definitely NOT complaining :)

We told the Mr's parents tonight. They are separated, so we made a call to his mom and then one to his dad. They (of course) are super excited! It still feels surreal to me. Every once in a while it will hit me... I'm pregnant!

I was talking to the Mr the other night, and I told him that I'm scared I'm going to jinx it. Like if I sign up for the BabyCenter updates or if I buy or rent baby books, or anything like that, that something bad will happen. I also told him that I was scared that my boobs didn't seem to hurt as bad as they had been (I tend to over analyze). His response? What would you do about it? What would you do if they stopped hurting? Nothing. It is not in your control.

I definitely needed to hear that. None of this is in my control. No matter how much I try to be careful and rest and eat right, no matter how much I pray, this tiny baby is in God's hands. He is in control. He has His plan. That is both scary and comforting to me right now. It is hard to let go... even if it isn't in your control in the first place.

So I have been trying to live by that. Let Go and Let God. I am trying to just enjoy each day I am blessed with this pregnancy. I thank God each chance I get. The Mr rented a bunch of pregnancy books from the library (isn't he cute?!) so I have been reading them and just trying to stay in this peaceful place.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)

ICLW January!

Hey!! I am a little late today doing my intro, but work is crazy!

I will just do a short "about me" post... you can see my journey to the side. I am 27 and my husband is 29. We have been trying to conceive for about a year and a half, and now I am happy to say I am 5 weeks pregnant! I haven't completely wrapped my mind around that yet. It's funny... it is such a long, hard journey that once I got here I almost don't know what to do with myself!

I am a Christian and live for God. I feel truly blessed and will do everything I can to shower this precious baby with the love of God.

The Mr. and I have a dog, we live in the South, we have been married for 3 1/2 years.
I look forward to meeting many of you and following your journey!

Beta and the wedding!

I went in today for my second beta. I am 19 dpo, and my beta number was 1,604!
WOW! I am pregnant! I have a really hard time saying that out loud! I am just amazed!

My brother's wedding this weekend was amazing! It was absolutely perfect! I think it was the wedding they dreamed of :) I was tired, but feeling pretty good the whole weekend. After all the festivities and after we got my brother off on his honeymoon, the Mr. and I told my parents. I really wanted to tell them in person, and the next time I will see them will be in March. Plus it is nice to know that they are praying for a healthy baby along with us!

They were so excited! We went out to dinner to celebrate!

I am feeling pretty good. I am still getting tired in the afternoons, but it actually isn't as bad as it has been. My lower back aches and every once in a while I will get twinges in my abdomen. Fine with me! That just reminds me that there is something going on!!

It's official!!

I am pregnant!!

I just got the call from my doctor, my beta was 338, and she said my progesterone was off the charts.
I am just speechless!! I have been thanking God so much!
The only real symptom I'm having now is extreme fatigue. Every once in awhile I'll feel some twinges in my abdomen, but nothing too bad.

I am beyond excited!

The Mr. and I are about to head home to go to my brothers wedding this weekend! Can't wait!!

Thanks ladies so much for your comments!!

I tested...

Can you see it???

I see a very light second line. I am shaking right now!
The Mr and I were talking after dinner and he said just go take a test...
It took a little bit for the second line to show up, and obviously it is really light. I am so scared to get excited about this! I will test again in the morning. Then I have my appointment Thursday morning.

Alphabet

When I got my first round of infertility meds in the mail, a little newsletter was included called "Stepping Stones". Inside there were some very inspirational stories, all Christian based. I was looking around online today when I came across their website, on it there was an Infertility Alphabet. I linked it, but I figured I would post it on here too so I could share it with you guys:

Ask and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock and it shall be opened unto you. Matthew 7:7

Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed; for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua 1:9

Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with Thanksgiving. Colossians 4:2

Draw nigh to God, and He will draw nigh to you. James 4;8

Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and He shall hear my voice. Psalm 55:17

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life John 3:16

Godliness with contentment is great gain. I Timothy 6:6

He that abideth in me, and I in Him, the same bringeth forth much fruit; for without Me ye can do nothing. John 15:5

In thee, O Lord, do I put my trust. Psalm 31:1

Judge not, and ye shall not be judged; condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned; forgive, and ye shall be forgiven. Luke 6:37

Keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life. Jude 1:21

Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have; for He hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Hebrews 13:5

My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121:2

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen Hebrews 11:1

O give thanks unto the Lord; for He is good; for His mercy endureth forever. Psalm 106:1

Pray without ceasing. I Thessalonians 5:17

Quicken us, and we will call upon thy name. Psalm 80:18

Rejoice in every good thing which the Lord thy God hath given unto thee... Deuteronomy 26:11

Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth Colossians 3:2

They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Uphold me according unto thy word, that I may live; and let me not be ashamed of my hope. Psalm 119:116

Verily, verily, I say unto you, whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in My name, He will give it you. John 16:23

With God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it... Psalm 127:1

Ye shall seek Me, and find Me when ye shall search for Me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13

The Lord shall bless thee out of Zion... Psalm 128:5

Prayer

I have been trying to stay under the radar during this 2 week wait. I am trying so hard to just relax and let God handle things. I am now 11 dpo. I want to test sooo bad! I am even scared to write the symptoms I'm having. I am really just trying to guard my heart. A few days ago I thought for sure that it didn't work, but now I am getting small glimmers of hope. That scares me!! My boobs are super sore, I am having cramping/heavy feeling in my abdomen, and I am tasting metal?? I know I've heard that this is a symptom, and I swear I'm not making it up. It's the weirdess thing!

Should I test tomorrow??? I know I should probably wait until Wednesday, and then I have an appointment on Thursday so, I might as well wait until then....

In church yesterday the preacher preached on prayer. I feel that my prayer life is pretty good. I mean I pray everyday. It, of course, could be better. I think that the Mr. and I have become much better at praying since we have been struggling with infertility. It seems that when you want something SOO bad, you somehow become great at praying. I have decided to make a conscious effort, that once we do get pregnant we continue our strong prayers. It really does make a difference.

Right now my prayer is that God give me peace about the end of this 2 ww. I could easily drive myself crazy :)

Pain of Infertility

A friend of mine found a great article. I want to make sure I link where she found it. This site posted about it, but here is a link to the actual article.

What a good read! This really points out the pain of infertility and how the bible addresses things that go along with it. The pain, the anger, the way others act toward you...

It really hits the nail on the head!

Good spirits

Yesterday at the doctor I got a shot in my hip, a Z pack, and some Robitussin... and I already feel TONS better! Turns out I have a sinus infection. Oh joy.

Last night I was doing my bible study. I started thinking just how BIG our God is! He created everything! I tend to forget just how much He can do. I hate to even admit that, but it is almost more than my mind can wrap around. I went back to Genesis and read about creation. I just needed to remind myself all that God did. Verse 28 caught my attention, Got told the man and woman to, "be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it." In my footnotes it told me to see Psalm 113:9 "He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children."

That comforted me. I can't wait to be a mother. God knows this. He is in total control. He can create an entire universe! He knows how this cycle will turn out, He knows what the next year looks like, He knows it all! It makes it easier for me to just give it all to Him. Let Him handle everything. There is no point of me stressing out. :)

Going to the doctor

Well, I think I may be getting a little better....
I am at work right now. My boss did kindly let me know that I need to go to the doctor so I don't "infect anyone else". Isn't she sweet? So I have an appointment this afternoon. It is tough explaining to the office that no I am not taking anything to make this horrid cold go away. Because I don't want to say, I'm trying to make a baby here and I just can't take it. Instead I just look dumb for not trying to get myself better. Oh well, we'll see what the doc says this afternoon.

So, I have really tried to keep my mind off this two week wait. As you all know, that's easier said than done! My abdomen and back are sore, but I think it's mainly because I keep coughing so hard! (it's too early for symptoms anyway) I have been asking God to keep my mind busy. I know that for a lot of people it takes multiple IUI's before they conceive. And for some it never works. And others it works on the first try. The Mr. and I are both praying that if is in God's will to please let us become pregnant with a healthy child! That would definitely be the perfect way to start the year!

Blah

Well on Thursday night (night of the IUI) the Mr. convinced me to go out to dinner for New Year's Eve. I was still pretty crampy, but by the time we got to the restaurant I felt a lot better! And since then I haven't had any cramps.

But........ I am sick. Sick. Sick. Sick. Yesterday I tried to be somewhat productive. Then last night I woke up at midnight and couldn't go back to sleep. I feel like my head is going to explode! The Mr. has been so sweet. He keeps saying, Babe we gotta get you better! You are going to have to make a baby. :) Hope he's right! He is gone right now to get me more tissues. It's hard because I don't feel like I can take anything in case I am pregnant.

I will probably be sitting on the couch most of the day. Oh and there is some snow outside! Just little flakes, but we never see snow here, so it's pretty neat!