Well, I have been feeling pretty okay. I am super tired, and the past couple days have been feeling queasy, but it isn't too bad. I am definitely NOT complaining :)
We told the Mr's parents tonight. They are separated, so we made a call to his mom and then one to his dad. They (of course) are super excited! It still feels surreal to me. Every once in a while it will hit me... I'm pregnant!
I was talking to the Mr the other night, and I told him that I'm scared I'm going to jinx it. Like if I sign up for the BabyCenter updates or if I buy or rent baby books, or anything like that, that something bad will happen. I also told him that I was scared that my boobs didn't seem to hurt as bad as they had been (I tend to over analyze). His response? What would you do about it? What would you do if they stopped hurting? Nothing. It is not in your control.
I definitely needed to hear that. None of this is in my control. No matter how much I try to be careful and rest and eat right, no matter how much I pray, this tiny baby is in God's hands. He is in control. He has His plan. That is both scary and comforting to me right now. It is hard to let go... even if it isn't in your control in the first place.
So I have been trying to live by that. Let Go and Let God. I am trying to just enjoy each day I am blessed with this pregnancy. I thank God each chance I get. The Mr rented a bunch of pregnancy books from the library (isn't he cute?!) so I have been reading them and just trying to stay in this peaceful place.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)