Sunday, January 24, 2010

Let God...

Well, I have been feeling pretty okay. I am super tired, and the past couple days have been feeling queasy, but it isn't too bad. I am definitely NOT complaining :)

We told the Mr's parents tonight. They are separated, so we made a call to his mom and then one to his dad. They (of course) are super excited! It still feels surreal to me. Every once in a while it will hit me... I'm pregnant!

I was talking to the Mr the other night, and I told him that I'm scared I'm going to jinx it. Like if I sign up for the BabyCenter updates or if I buy or rent baby books, or anything like that, that something bad will happen. I also told him that I was scared that my boobs didn't seem to hurt as bad as they had been (I tend to over analyze). His response? What would you do about it? What would you do if they stopped hurting? Nothing. It is not in your control.

I definitely needed to hear that. None of this is in my control. No matter how much I try to be careful and rest and eat right, no matter how much I pray, this tiny baby is in God's hands. He is in control. He has His plan. That is both scary and comforting to me right now. It is hard to let go... even if it isn't in your control in the first place.

So I have been trying to live by that. Let Go and Let God. I am trying to just enjoy each day I am blessed with this pregnancy. I thank God each chance I get. The Mr rented a bunch of pregnancy books from the library (isn't he cute?!) so I have been reading them and just trying to stay in this peaceful place.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)


  1. LOVE that verse! I'm praying for you!

  2. My boobs almost never hurt--that was always worrisome, but so far, so good for us (23 weeks).

    I totally get the small steps in telling folks, signing up for email, and books etc. It took me most of the first trimester to get through all of that--we just did it in stages.

  3. That is one of my very favorite verses! It is such a comfort to me.

    I'm glad that you're taking the opportunity to enjoy this wonderful time, regardless of the fear that we sometimes feel. Someone once ask me (when they found out how hesitant I was to read the books, tell people, etc.) if I had another loss, would it have made me any less pregnant for the time. Of course I said no and they said something similar to what the Mr. said to you. It was a great reminder that it was totally out of my hands and that I had to leave it to God.

    Now, reading and preparing and all that comes with it feel like outward signs of my faith that God is taking care of our baby (and yours!). :)

  4. I needed to read that verse today. I had an appointment with the doctor today because I had some brown spotting issues that started yesterday. Everything is going great, baby is great. But it is hard. We go through all the "what ifs." But the reality is that it is not in our control. God has a plan and His will be done. I'll keep praying for a healthy pregnancy for you!!

  5. Exactly! As hard as it is to let go, you have to for your own sanity! It is in God's hands. If this baby is meant to be... it WILL be! God's plan is perfect! I'm praying for a happy and healthy pregnancy for you!!

  6. Congrats on the baby !
    Happy ICLW