Wednesday, March 3, 2010

God's rules are right

I did my daily devotional yesterday and something in it caught my attention. It said something along the lines of,
"You must be committed to God's right to rule and confident that God's rules are right."
How true is this?! One goes with the other.
It just really spoke to me.
I think so many times I have a problem that I am definitely committed to God and know His right to rule, but sometimes I fall short when I am confident that His rules are right. So many times I try to justify things and make things the way I want them.

Throughout the struggle with infertility I tried so many times to make things "right", and really it isn't until I truely give it to God and trust that His rules are right that I really get the peace that I so desperately desire!

On another note - now that I am pregnant, I still haven't lost the feeling of being infertile. I don't know if that will ever go away. I don't know if I want it to. Infertility has made me so much stronger. It brought me closer to God and my husband. It has given me this outlet to find so many other women that can relate. It still makes me cry to think about the struggles that I and most of you girls have gone through or are going through. I hate it. I feel like having gone through so much to get to this point, I treasure being pregnant so much differently (more?) than someone that hasn't gone through it.

I know that it is hard to read about pregnancies when you are trying to hard to get pregnant. I don't know if I have lost any readers. I understand if I have. I am still praying for those out there that are stuggling. I think I always will. I have such a spot in my heart for it now. God is so good and He knows the stuggles, He sees every tear and hears every prayer.


  1. WOW! I could written this post word for word. I still feel "infertile" and I am okay with that. I am not ashamed of what I have gone through and hope to never lose what IF has taught me.

  2. Such a touching post and scripture. Thanks for sharing!

  3. Struggling with the same feelings and hoping and praying for others too. I think we will always be an "infertle", but now we have a testimony and a miracle that we can brag about God with!