It is truly amazing how much peace I feel about my IF right now. I think I could easily allow myself to become obsessed and stressed over the situation. But really... I have absolutely no control over it! Normally this would freak me out (I am a planner... see below!) but knowing that God is the one that is in control gives me such peace!
This does not mean that I don't get sad over it. I just read a blog, this woman just gave birth and she wrote about her birth story. Now, I am not one to be bitter about other women getting pregnant or anything, but I can't help but feel the tug at my heart. It is the most beautiful miracle - a child being born, and I pray that God allow me to experience this too.
I am really hoping that when I go into my doctors appointment on Thursday that my follicles will have gone down. Wonder why they don't? My bloodwork was baseline, so shouldn't they just go away?! I am sure it has something to do with my PCOS. Fun times. Since I have nothing to do after work today or tomorrow, Thursday morning seems like it will take forever to get here!
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. (Psalm 40:1)