Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Pretty sure

I am pretty sure I am:

a) ovulating today


b) just having pains in my abdomen because I did a hardcore ab workout on Sunday, and now I am sore from it.

I am pretty sure it's a. (Honestly, I really have no clue how to tell besides cramps.) I started cramping some last night, and today off and on I've been having cramps. At least something is going on in there! I did have a good workout though - and I am sore! That's why it is hard to tell what is going on :)

I am really making a point this cycle to "Let go, and let God". I am praying so hard that it is God's will for us to conceive this time around! At the same time, if it is not His will, I pray that I will have peace with that. My mind keeps wandering to the "what ifs". And the "have I done everything I cans". It is so hard not to get in that mindset! I found myself thinking - okay we did the deed when we were supposed to... but did I lay on my back for long enough afterwards? (even though I hear mixed comments on if that even matters!) And I caught myself... If this is meant to be, God WILL make this happen. "...with God all things are possible." (Matthew 19:26) If it isn't, then it doesn't matter what I do!


  1. I needed to read this last part of your post. I was just released from my bed rest post-IVF ET and I keep thinking, "Should I sit back down? Should I not be doing X? Should I this, should I not that?" Blah blah blah blah blah... And DH is like the bed rest Hi.tler and he wants me to stay down until beta! But... God is in control and is SO active in this cycle for me. I only need to be reasonable, not ridiculously rigid and beat myself up. He will take care of it. :) THanks!

  2. "Let go, and let God". I hear you on that one. As I near the end of the 2WW I'm second guessing all the timing but the reality is that there's nothing I can do now to change it. It's all IN GOD'S HANDS!!! I can never be reminded enough that God has it all under control. Hope you are ovulating today! A good workout is awesome too though. =)

  3. I was checking out your right-hand column -- how do you KNOW when you don't ovulate? Or do you know because you didn't trigger on those cycles?

    Congrats on the HSG all clear! :)

  4. Stopping by for ICLW - hi! I wrote a similar post a little while ago about the difficulty of letting go...I hope that your plan and God's plan match VERY SOON!